Slowly but surely getting into wedding shape 😍💍
Less than 6 months to go! 🥴
❤️TW: weight loss, mention of toxic relationship, grief/death
Long post ahead with some vulnerability that doesn’t need any “what weight?” Or “it showed” or “it didn’t show” or any comments a long those lines. This will also be up on my blog at some point 🖤
My weight is/was higher than I wanted it to be by a long shot. I saw an IG influencer post on her stories a response to a gaining baby weight question and it has sat with me most of the day. So I thought maybe more of us need to speak up about it!
After taking with my doctor and having a come to Jesus meeting it was decided that my hormones are all kinds of out of whack, I was on the wrong antidepressants, I didn’t need the other med I was talking, and my diet needed some serious attention. After working out like crazy, watching what I ate, trying fasting, cutting sugar, ect ect… I was gaining weight. At my last well woman check it was suggested that I do my best to loose 40-45 pounds. You can imagine my shock. I knew I gained weight but that much to reach the ideal weight class for my height and build 😳😩
Luckily! I got a new psychiatrist who took the time to understand me better and prescribed the 👏🏻 correct 👏🏻 antidepressants which have made the biggest difference. We have a hormone balancing plan in place- that started with taking out the other med. And my diet has improved a million times over! I now take daily vitamins and supplements (like the total greens and a multi vitamin for her). With some past blood work it was found that I have a vitamin d deficiency, so I take a supplement for that too.
My weight loss has been for my mental health, physical health, future health, and conception health (not that it is needed yet). As someone that has had a rough story for pregnancy, being in the best possible physical health when we are ready is extra important to me. To be blunt I want to have an earth side baby not just ones in heaven 🖤
My weight and depression started to increase around the time I realized my last relationship was a death sentence and then it plateaued when I found the love of my life but then increased with the loss of my Grammy and baby. I had yet to find a manageable place to be. Finally I am moving into a better me.
Although one of the most difficult things with weight loss that no one talks about is how you won’t have anything that fits. You’ll be out of real pants before you know it and resulting to leggings and sweats. But you’ll also be at weird in between phases where none of your shirts fit and look like tents or the smaller ones are still too tight. Me, personally, I prefer to not leave the house and to wear leggings paired with my husband’s shirts to cover everything up and/or a comfy hoodie. But none of that stops the desire to continuously look in the mirror and get on the scale and wait for those numbers to tick down.
Since being on this journey I’m down quite a bit, sleep so much better, am happier, and have more energy. If you ask some people neat and dear to my heart, they might tell you that I am more me now than I was 6 months ago. I have confidence in myself and am ready to conquer the world in smaller jean sizes!
Hallie Dantzler 